I have been gone for so long that I feel like I owe everyone who was reading my most elusive thoughts. I have had a lot of time between my last written dictation, and so many things have transpired that I feel I need to try my best to summarize everything prior to starting back writing on the regular.
First things first, I have relocated back to the states. Originally I was in Germany, so far away from my parents and wife that it felt like I wasn’t even married. Well it felt like that for a few reasons but we can get into that later. Next, my wife and I are doing well. It hasn’t been an easy journey and trust me I am still very much broken from the events that have occurred but we both have not only done wrong to one another but we also acted irrational about everything. Instead of actively trying to remain a big part of each other’s life, she focused on work, and put me last and I took it as separation and distanced myself as well. It was not something we needed and it only made our relationship that much harder. Now that I have returned to the states, not in the same state as my wife but at least in the same time zone, we have been pushing forward with or relationship. We are about to close on a house and just get this marriage life on track like we both desire. But that doesn’t mean there aren’t obstacles still standing in our way.
During all the drama, and ignorance that had been occurring I had a chance to talk to my wife about us, our future, our love, our relationship and a lot of juicy information came out. Like the only reason she moved back to Georgia was because she mentioned that she would need to “eventually” move back for her parent sake. If she hadn’t of mentioned that, her life right now wouldn’t be so damn stressful. At least for the time being. Her job…I must say her job has irritated me to the point that I don’t think it would be wise for me to be around them anymore because the way they talk and treat my wife, even when she isn’t to blame, makes me want to one-inch punch someone in the nose. It stresses her out, makes her life a living hell and she ends up leaving that and having to deal with her parents, who are another increased source of misery for her. I just feel so powerless here, but I do try to listen to her vent, be there for her, and do what I can from a distance. It’s rough though.
On another point, we have become travel junkies. Well, let me rephrase that, I have joined her on her travel junkie adventures and as a result I am becoming a huge fan of travelling and experiencing the world. Our adventures have had us see parts of Germany I wouldn’t have even tried to experience, to Spain, to Greece. Oh, and Greece was a lot of fun, minus the overly aggressive flower girls who got my wife so upset that she basically jumped out of tourist mode to express her disapproval of the flower girl’s close proximity to me. It was quite funny.
All and all, my wife and I have bounced back from everything, twice as strong and even more in love with one another then before. I still have my moments of weakness where I think of things from the past and it causes my heart to skip a beat but that doesn’t remotely effect my situation with her. She is my inspiration and the love of my life and I am so blessed that we have resurrected from the like a Phoenix; stronger.